When you don’t know what to do, go outside. And so we went.

A woman who means a great deal to me, passed far away. She had a rare and aggressive form of cancer and she was dead two weeks after the doctors found it. I didn’t get to say goodbye in person and I couldn’t go to the funeral.

I also had to keep little person, who didn’t understand why her Baffa was sad, occupied and happy. So I threw our weekly rhythm out, and we spent a week outside. We walked through the woods and let the trees lean in close. We walked and when there was a moment to share knowledge we did that and hoped she knew we were continuing her legacy of teaching. We walked and I grieved and Kai absorbed the world around her. And that was enough.